How do I explain that to keep my smile up, sometimes I need to fight gravity lying down?
My smiles don’t come easy, but it’s worth every bit. Even if I’m having a bad day, I can smile, because I got out of bed today. To me, that’s a great start to an amazing day… even if I’m floored in the afternoon for the next 11 hours. Continue reading
Stepping Into a New Begining
Able to get on the first plane, I prepped my body for the next. This time I was building a body to vehicle me towards my dream. Since I’ve made it back, I want to share this gift with the world and help others too.
So I trained even harder, accepted my offer into physiotherapy, and bought an aeroplane ticket. Though scared, I had just talked myself into going, and so was ready to face it with no reservations, until… Continue reading
Flying To See My Grandma
They wheel-chaired me forward. I admit it. I was scared, afraid, and excited. Tears pushed against my eyelids as I tried to hold them back. My heart raced, and I was shaking… and a few tears leaked out from the side of my eye, so I sleeved them away. Everything I worked for encompassed into this very moment.
Over taken with anxiousness I kept repeating a quote by Michel de Montaigne “A man who fears suffering, is already suffering from what he fears.” But it didn’t really help. “ Final boarding call! Final boarding call to Malaysia!”
For my first time painting, I decided to express my recovery.
It’s been tossing and turning in my head. I think about it when I’m awake, and dream about it when I’m asleep. How do I know it’s right for me? I don’t know what the future holds, but what I do know, is how to make the right decision and that going down either path will impact a ripple for what’s coming up.
For a period of time I stopped. I’ve stopped writing, reading and rehabbing. It’s not because I wanted to, but because I needed to. My goal in recovery was to help others through the experience of overcoming my adversity. I was getting strong, but was I strong enough?
Oh no, it happened again! My back gave out. It’s the first time this year, and it always comes at the most inconvenient of times.
Last year it happened three times, all within similar scenarios. There is a list of six possibilities that cause back failure and only three that need to be present for it to occur.
Every weekend I go on a hike, in wonder for adventure and life, searching for something greater. Each walk reflects a progress of recurring results, raised confidence and a deeper understanding through self-reflection.
As each step follows another, the rotating sun plays peak-a-boo behind the clouds, teasing a comfort of warmth. I look up and notice there’s a glimmer of sun and moon both at the same time. Oddly unusual, yet beautifully present to balance each other in support at the same time, striking up a thought of two objectives presented within a journey.
If the world wants to see, they must first close their eyes.
There are three realities that happen to us, but only one we take in personally. As quoted from the book The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari, “ The Chinese define image in these terms: there are three mirrors that form a person’s reflection; the first is how you see yourself, the second is how others see you and the third mirror reflects the truth. Know yourself… Know the truth.”
As we roll up the end of the year, I roll up my sleeves, and roll out in preparation of a great new start. I know this coming year will be a great one, and it’ll be my year, all I have to do is push harder than I’ve done before, and apply the knowledge gathered.
As I was forced away from the gate, I left October puzzled and trying to figure out who I was. I didn’t know what was meant of me, but to work hard, and give it the best I got. From here, I sought out to find out my purpose with personal-development, so I turned in search and walked away…